Future maybe?

I know that till now in life, it feels that I do not have a proper goal, people start asking me "so what you intend to do after poly?", " where will you head too?", "How sure are you that it is useful?" etc.

I am not going to stay stagnant and get stuck in a rut anymore. Not saying that I am getting very sloppily every now and then, just that, I know like only 20% of the battle – not conscious enough about my future.

Okay, this entry is a sudden entry after all the fun - Time to get a bit serious and say out something that I feel. Mmmm…should I have a plan for where I am heading too? Well, I am saying that I have nothing – no solid plans at all just random ideas, but I guess this does not necessary means I am going to be drifted.

Oh well, true that if I know where I am heading to, means I have sat down to think and focus. Yes, but I didn’t. However, everyone always say “If you don’t have a plan, you could end up anywhere?” Ya ya ya so true, and I guess that it sounds exciting but I doubt many people end up happy and successful merely by chance. Those are the real lucky people whereby lady luck shine upon them, but very few of such cases. I recapped this show I have seen where a woman really gets a drastic change in her life after she has given birth. Alright, I know this is so far for me, but it adds to my “future plans.”

We all know the nature of ripples. You know, whereby you throw a stone and it causes ripples, ya those. So if I do not get serious thinking, in a society that is so based on certificates, it takes like my individual responsibility to get involved and be part of the process. So like if the ripples are my next generation, what am I going to cause them to be, am I adversely affecting them?I am not one that will shut my eyes off to see the plight of others caused by my own actions.

I need to see a big picture and no to any bitter harvest. This is not the end to it, I am still thinking...

This entry is from march post, but it stays practical, always.