I want this, I want that!
I am constantly envious of people (to a certain extend). This is my way of interacting with the world. Sometimes, I am driven to excesses of guilt and after "act out" to punish myself. It might a vicious cycle in which I am entrapped. I inhabit the artificial bubble that is my world where I am queen and country, I am the law and yardstick, I am the one and only. Flickering laptop, noises, delusions. I am happy and soothed but they are all dreams.
Live a day, gain a day, be happier for that day.
Friday, December 14, 2007
